Okay, serious anxiety people

My internship is just about over. I was happy about getting authentic "hand's on" experience. I however, would like more so I can find a full-time career that pays a living wage, so Carson and I can marry. I have been talking to Vocational Rehabilitation (VR) several times. However, I still have not heard back from them. No offense to Harris Teeter, but I would like to be part of something bigger in my life. I have two college degrees. I am engaged to a woman I LOVE very much. Not trying to bash Harris Teeter, but I do want to be apart of something else in my life. I hope they'll understand. It has been causing severe anxiety lately.